im just gunna be straight with this shit. in the last few weeks of 2008 i was pretty fuckin depressed and very lonely. i think it was so bad it was effecting me physically cause i had back aches and headaches for no dam reason making it suck to even go to work

but i think 09 is going to be just like america for me... theres is going to be alot of fuckin change

something happened to me on new years that is pretty much just amazing and all im going to say is that it turned my emotions around like 3 hundred and sixty dam degrees and i have been like super happy the past few days. i honestly dont think the year could have started any better then this.

as for 09 i think im going to lay low on modding my car for the year so that i can get my finances back together from the aftermath of being unemployed for 2 weeks. plus me and my buddys did so much work to the interior of my car last fall i may as well have it the way it is for a whole season before we rip it out and do it even more extreme. ill def still hit all the local car shows i can and i few ones that will require road trips (asylum bitches!)

i would also like to appologize to anyone who may read this that i may not have treated very well in the past. i know i can be an asshole and sometimes its on purpose but sometimes i just dont even know. i can be a very confusing person i know but i hope that i can keep rising above my own issues and be a better person and a better friend to everyone

i feel that i have matured alot in the past year. i have realised alot about myself and where i want to be. and how i want to get there. i feel like i am finally ready to step up and be the person i know i can be and find somone who will be there with me along the way.

i would also just like to say thank you to everyone who has helped me along in the last year. people like my family, and my close friends. i can honestly say that without all of the love and support i have recieved from all of you i dont know if i would be here today. i love you all!

thank you